Scorned by Ginna Moran

Author:Ginna Moran [Moran, Ginna]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Sunny Palms Press
Published: 2017-01-26T05:00:00+00:00

15

CAN’T SAVE HIM

MALICEVILE TALKS QUIETLY with Raphael near the back door as he watches me on the beach. He didn’t try to stop me as I stepped into the crisp almost morning air, but he did follow behind me like a shadow.

Faith stands on the beach next to me, the waves drifting around our feet before sliding back into the calm ocean. Her blond hair falls loosely down her back, and she’s wearing pajama shorts and a tank top despite the cold morning.

“I’m really sorry about tonight. You didn’t deserve my anger. I know you’re trying to help.”

She rubs her hands up and down her arms. “Thanks. That means a lot to me.”

I press my lips together. “Do you think you can do something for me?” I whisper so quietly that I’m not even sure she can hear me.

She doesn’t look at me but says, “Anything.”

I shift closer. “Can you pass on a message to Dylan for me? Tell him that I need his help. That I need a miracle.”

She subtly nods her head. “Does that mean you’re...” Her voice trails off.

“I can’t stay, Faith.”

“What about Evan?”

I don’t respond because I don’t have the answer to that. I’m not ready to give up hope on us, but I can’t stay and suffer through the torment of being with Malicevile. Maybe with some space, I’ll be able to think more clearly, come up with a plan. As of now, the only way Evan’s soul will ever be mine is if he dies. And then what? It wouldn’t be any different than it is now. I’d still only hold a fraction of the boy I fell in love with. God, why did he ever do this? How can I fix this? My thoughts fade as fast as I think them. What’s the point?

Finally after a long moment, when the sky starts to shift to purple, I say, “I can’t save him if I can’t save myself first, Faith. Right now, he’s lost to me. As lost as he was the day he traded his soul for my life. I didn’t want to believe it. I didn’t believe it. But it’s true.” Tears leak down my face as I whisper the words. Saying them out loud to Faith makes them more real, more concrete. I can’t deny them or bury the thoughts with the rest of my grief.

Faith reaches out and takes my hand, squeezing my fingers in hers. She doesn’t say anything, doesn’t try to make me feel better. Her silence is comforting enough for me to know that despite how horrible I feel, I’m doing the right thing in the end by contacting Dylan. The right thing has felt so wrong for so long that it’s hard to accept. But I have to do it. I need to figure out my life and what it means for me to be a demon without being tainted by Malicevile. Because this life, this person that I am right in this moment, isn’t me.

“Camilla, it’s time to go back inside,” Malicevile says from behind me.

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